Hiyee all! I've noticed that I only visit my Xanga because Angel reminds me to. Oh well.. as yall know I've been busy during the past two weeks.. lotsa work beating the crap out of me.. dealing with a hopeless lovelife... anyways... I've read you're pages na rin and most of you posted the pics from last Friday.. Too bad I came late and I dint get to see you guyz... I was at Casa and was talking to.. guess who.. Ben Chan, Lucy Torres and the rest of the Chans.. It was nothing serious really... it all boils down to one thing... yeah you're right! F4 mwahhahahaha... I was talking to them about Jerry Yan mwahahahaha... sorry hindi ko talaga napigilang chikahin cya! Oh well.. it was nice rubbing elbows with them.. In fact Ben was really down to earth and so as Lucy... Now the thing is they're planning to have me as the new Bench model... would you believe that?! Coz I wont...

Things are more relaxed in the office now.. nothing to do literally. Our bosses from Japan, Singapore and all over the world came here to have a team building activity. Yesterday, we had dinner with them at Sentro. Nothing special but a realization came to me. It's just been a year since I left college.. everything is so different now. I never thought of having dinner with old professionals doing business stuff.. talking to Ben Chan.. I missed being a student... I suddenly thought that time is running real fast that you'll never know where you're at. Sometimes I think- Am I getting old? Do I need to act on my own life now? like right now? Im really in a state of confusion..

A lot of confusions... really... Kenny is leaving on Saturday. It's really making me sad as the days go by. He's a very special person in my life.. I could say that. And I will always remember how he made me feel special too. I remember him saying, when we talked last week, that he never met a wonderful girl as I am. He said that I was so different and he started saying serious stuff. I have never in my life had a guy say nice things to me... and I want to thank him for that. I mean.. it really made me feel good about myself.. made me feel more secure... Suddenly the thought of losing that one thing that made you happy for sometime sank in.. I had no choice but to breakdown and cry.. I dint mind if he would hear it coz for once I want to show my honest feelings for someone. He kept on saying sorry.. but I know that wouldn't allow anything to happen. There was a long quiet moment... I heard him breathe hard and I knew that he was crying too. I broke the silence and tried to compose myself. It was funny coz my hirit was "Well... there's always the internet!" Kwela! Oh well.. the next morning I went to office with swollen peepers! Ang chaka!

It's always nice to know that with all the confusions in life... there would still be things that you won't be confused about.. one is friendship... drama na ba toh? I know my friends will always be there... kaya to all.. pakiayos naman tong chakang Xanga page ko oh... ang panget eh... kaya nakakawala nang gana magsulat!

hay sayang not all of you saw the pepsi commercial... ganda pa naman! something to be proud as an axian! oh well... things have been boring these past few days.. nothing to do at work, home or anywhere else.. nothing to do that I slept at my office desk and was caught by my American boss Joe Bald! grabe talaga... he's not just my immediate boss.. he's the boss for Asia! damn it! The worst part was that he didnt reprimand me directly.. he let the chain of command take place so that everyone in office knows about it... nakakahiya talaga... buti na lang ambait talaga ng boss kong gwapo!

His name is Mark.. sobrang bait and funny! He calls us (aya, vaan and me) Angels and we call him Charlie.. eh may ka team kami na isang guy so cya si Bosley(Bozley) kwela! cool cyang boss.. he knows how to appreciate your work... Cute nga eh.. binigyan nya ko ng star parang pang kinder! Sana lahat ng boss sa mundo katulad nya!

Anyways, I had lunch today with my bestfriend's boyfriend. He's on P&G na rin kasi. We haven't seen each other for a long time and he was just updating himself about us through friendster. He knew about Kenneth na rin. I told him na I think it won't work out coz he'll be leaving soon. Oh well... what can I do.. I don't want my first to be a LDR. Anyways, he told me that if that's the case, I should start dating other guys. He told me that he'll introduce me to his friends blahblahblah.. Sounds good but I really don't have much interest on those stuff right now. I dunno.. I think I just gave up the thought of having a relationship. I'm slowly opening myself up to entering spinster valley.. No dramas or anything but that's how I feel. But who cares, Im happy wiht my life right now.. trying to get rich.. that's my goal right now. And take away all my insecurities in life =)

hay naku... sorry it's just now that i put a new entry... eh kasi naman eversince nawala yung skin ko nawalan na ko ng gana! and pagbalik ko cno yung nagcomment na leche GNAA... kung cno ka man.. epal ka! magcomment ka hanggat gusto mo! lech! mwahahhaha

anyways nothin new about me... wele leng!

plug lang ako ang ganda talaga ng bagong commercial ng pepsi! mas malupit kesa kina britney! DL nyo astig!

not sure kung eto yun

http://myweb.hinet.net/home8/j010zoo/Pepsi0605.rmvb

things have been busy lately and it seemed like i forgot that i got a xanga... neways, i haven't written about my bday yet.. i know it's kinda late but i just wanna share my thoughts about it.. it was a typical bday... dinner with the family and separate gimmicks with different sets of friends... ok lang but then.. i thought 21 na ko... ang bilis.. and i realized na it's time to get serious with life.. i dunno..

but anyways i enjoyed celebrating it with my friends... ang saya when we went at redbox! kantahan galore.. para kaming nasa variety show!!! cyempre ang lalaki ng pics ni kuting di ko maupload hehehe

touched ako coz they gave me a card with the pic of f4 and my face and the whole barkada on the other side... so i can keep those people i love on my wallet wherever i go!